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[Jul. 23rd, 2003|10:09 am] |
i've decided to move my non-personal rants and snuff to my web site since i'm touching up on it
www.fiik.net
now, on a personal note .. i miss talking to her :/ |
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[Jul. 2nd, 2003|11:21 am] |
i'm a little disappointed with myself. i lead myself to lax in the fps game i was supposed to make by this month. after playing tron2, i remembered how i made the first tron game for windows (when it was WinG and win95 just came out) and put it on aol. and how right after that, i got offers from origin systems. i wasn't a slacker back then like i am now. i know i don't have the same amount of time as i did back then, but i could at least cut down on the planetside to make an even better fps.
that's what i'll do. i hope.
forgot to add .. i might try this mud out to get some inspiration: Achaea |
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[Jun. 30th, 2003|08:25 am] |
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| [ | music |
| | J.Majik | ] |
crazy weekend.
friday night started out as a regular no-brainer outing as my friends and i listened to our good friend, angelique, play at our regular spot. very regular night heh .. then we went to my house where every musician i knew called and wanted to play that night. "right on." and it was amazing .. beautiful improv. then we decided (well, i convinced others) to wrestle outside. i have my stitches in my knee so i wasn't much of a challenge (and my ribs are reminding me of that every day now .. ugh)
saturday i played drums for the first time. well, not the first time .. but longer than 5 minutes. i didn't know i could play like i did. "damn, man .. didn't know you could play drums!" "neither did i." i played every style they could think of until my fingers had blisters. i knew i had it in me to play but not *that* good. i can't wait to buy my own set .. one day. (note: procrastination)
sunday was chill .. k had to read her books, do some homework, etc .. while i had a great time playing planetside (which is a rarity over the course of a few hours heh). then we watched the tnn series "caeser" and i must say it's pretty good. wouldn't say it's consistent with historical events and personalities; but ... i liked it.
there .. new entry. oh! and i took a picture of my stitched-up knee .. will post it later (note: more procrastination) |
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[Jun. 25th, 2003|01:15 pm] |
so last few days have been busy as hell but to make matters worse, i had to go to the hospital last night. i've been running on bleachers for quite a while now at the local university's track & field stadium. i was on my last few steps when my headphone came out of my left ear while i'm turning around to head down. of course, i'm listening to drum & bass and trying to keep up with the rhythm. well, turning around while decceleratng at that speed *and* trying to grab my left ear's headphone caused me to lose balance .. at the top of the bleachers. my right foot slips and falls off the top bleachers but luckily i caught myself before falling two stories off the top heh.
my friend came to check me out and said "wow for such a huge gash, you're not bleeding at all!" i saw the meat of the gash but didn't think it was so severe. not till i looked at the hole in my leg it made and saw the bone. apparently, i hit the corner of a steel beam and *that* caught my fall .. so i'm sorta grateful to it .. sorta. >)
i finish my running and then we head to the hospital. by that time the adrenaline started to fade as i felt cold air entering the hole in my leg and touching the bone. that's like putting ice on a sore tooth. funny part about the pain was when i got to the hospital .. the lady at the desk asked "on a scale of 1-10, how do you rate your pain?" and i said "1 to 2 .. it doesn't hurt right now". ha not till an hour later when i got up from a seat and felt the pain.
5 stitches .. yay!
ok that happened to me the day before i am to buy my new vehicle. thankfully i could walk this morning but it was funny to show up at the dealership with a limp. (and they never asked about it either .. so considerate ha)
it was raining when i took these but here it is .. the painful transaction |
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[Jun. 17th, 2003|09:33 am] |
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| [ | music |
| | DJ Krush | ] |
once again, i've managed to piss off the leader of whatever guild i'm in. i'm only trying to make the guild (in this case, outfit) better. i mean, i'm donating my t1 line to the teamspeak server so that everyone can communicate with each other better. and even though i really hate working with people i don't fully know yet, i've taken in a whole crew of outfit members as part of my dedicated squad and command them to the best of my ability. the leader is once again either jealous, pissed or has some sort of low self-esteem .. cause he won't talk to me, he won't help promote the teamspeak server (whereas every other officer has), he won't promote me to captain to invite people (whereas he has promoted people under me to captain .. people who haven't worked their tails off like i have) .. and he won't invite people i suggest to the outfit (whereas he does for anyone else). w t f?
i knew this would happen. that's why i tried to just stick to my closest of friends and be hush hush in the outfit .. but that never works out. in daoc, i became a pretty good officer in one of the top hiblet guilds of palomides .. at the time. i didn't appreciate how the other officers could care less about their members. but i listened to their crap while trying to promote the guild and keep it stable. and again, the leader didn't like what was happening. so he forms an "elite" portion of the guild .. separating the inner circle from the rest of the guild he created. and of course, he wanted me to run the older guild. w t f? why can't leaders just let me do my job without feeling like they're not top dog?
oh but wait, let's roll back to everquest. shining forces of light .. yup, same thing. that guild was condemned from the start .. but somehow i became head of that guild as well .. because i flippin cared about the members!
oh but wait .. there's more. it goes way back .. like prodigy .. yeah, that far back. i remember joining a board on prodigy related to r talsorian's cyberpunk. the head of the board was gone for two weeks with some real-life stuff .. so my cousin and i worked on continuing the story (it was an interactive storyboard .. you know .. where everyone participates with their stories?) well, i was throwing in stories so that everyone reading had a part in one way or another .. big or small .. to keep the board interesting and to let readers know they could participate too. two weeks later, the board was booming! it was like dragonmount on the 16k level .. yeah! but then the head of the board comes back. instead of saying "thanks, this is awesome!" she put a big post on the board out-of-character with something along the lines of "i leave for two weeks and you guys take over my board! well fine, screw you all! i'm leaving!" talk about ruining a good thing. so i left .. i thought i did something wrong .. cause i was a little less experienced in what i'm grown accustomed to doing.
so now i'm a level 54 scapegoat ..
hell, even at work i got two people fired or laid off cause i could do their jobs. mom told me "work your best and people will acknowledge it" .. she didn't tell me the fine print that "...and others will learn to hate you." i think my boss is the only leader person who just lets me work my best without thinking i'm gonna ruin his ego.
this is nothing to brag about either. cause i don't *want* to be leader of things to that degree .. well, not until i'm ready and that should be my call, not someone elses. so why in hell do people have to get pissed at me when all i want to do is have fun, entertain people and maybe .. just maybe .. influence others to do the same?
bah |
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[Jun. 11th, 2003|02:14 pm] |
Got my fiik.com web site up finally. Took forever to get the old registrar to let it loose. Seems they were bought out or something. Two months later, I finally add it to the rest of my domains on the good registrar. Now I can split stuff up appropriately.
Now on to more interesting matters.
Sony: Hype vs Reality
Now I love Sony and their entertainment corporation. I don't care how big they are as long as they make things for the people and not for what's in now. *cough* X-Box *cough* But one thing concerns me. Check out these pics of Planetside when it was first being developed:
Nice huh? Makes you think "wow! Like Half-Life 2!" or whatever.. Now look at the actual screenshots based on high details all around, application AA and 1024x748 resolution (cause the game engine is toooooooooooo sloooooooooooooow):
Makes you think "eh? Like Half-Life?" or whatever. Talk about a step back, right? Especially since games are looking hot nowadays and we all know it's possible to have good-looking games with decent framerates (Elder Scrolls: Morrowind .. NetImmerse rocks when used right .. yup, yup) So like .. what happened? Why is the game so badly rendered? I know this computer can kick out some nice eyecandy at very nice framerates .. so what gives?
Well .. I'm not gonna go into reasons or opinions on Planetside .. cause the game is still entertaining. Nay, what bothers me is this ...
How many people think these are rendered? Hmm? Hmm? So .. what will EverQuest 2 look like? Dear God please say they'll do much better than Planetside ... |
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[May. 29th, 2003|09:29 am] |
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| [ | music |
| | nunya | ] |
so .. i was staring at my monitor last night. didn't feel like practicing music. didn't feel like programming. just wanted to play. the game was selling for $39.99 + one free month subscription + 7-day trial for a friend. i .. couldn't resist.
i bought planetside.
and am having a blast once again .. woohoo! my friend and i are also playing half-life/tfc again .. but when he's out and about, i have planetside to keep me company. the game is truly a lot better now that everyone isn't about br10. it's quite interesting .. and probably will keep me interested till hl2 comes out anyway heh. $40 + about 3 months' subscription? i can live with that :)
now i need a better comp at home |
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[May. 27th, 2003|04:51 pm] |
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| | smartbomb | ] |
welp, after purchasing resources well over $750 to better edumacate myself on the matter of mmopgs .. i've come to this conclusion: making an mmp game engine is soooo much fun! there is a shizload to learn, design, prefect, tweak tweak tweak *twitch*, redesign. it's not for the fast-money schemeres, i'll tell you that. to me, it's a longterm hobby that won't make me any money but gives me something to do .. and look forward to when the final product is made.
the biggest setback would be art. in today's game society, artists should start asking for 6-figures if they aren't already. cause they are amazing individuals. sure .. anyone can do it if they put their mind, heart and soul into .. but how many do? i have trueSpace, wings3d, povray and a slew of other non-3ds-max-take-my-wallet-and-kidney-please apps. learning these isn't too difficult; but i'm not professional like those artists at sony or ncsoft. but since i can't afford to hire an artist (nor expect one to wait for me to be ready for them), i have to do the art myself. so .. i commend you artists out there for just being you and working towards a higher goal.
which brings me back to my code. the client-server code is tight. i'm now at the "let's see what i can do with it" at the moment .. so i can redesign it for mmopgs. i regret ever putting some of the code in my remote server admin program i made for that freelancer game .. because it's very good. but it'll only be a few months before it gets put on the internet shelves. and i'm sure i didn't make anything new in that version anyway.
k will be starting school next month for her master's .. which means i'll have to keep myself busy as well. so by the end of next month, i want to have finished a simple fps for my friends to play. and i mean s-i-m-p-l-e. more on this later.
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[May. 21st, 2003|11:01 am] |
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| | Ken Ishii Innerelements | ] |
Ok if you haven't seen the 25-minute preview of Half-Life 2, GO SEE IT!!!
My gawd it's unbelievable! I had to burn it on CD and show my friends. Some were skeptical about how much I boasted about it weeks ago. But now their responses are along the lines of "we have to wait till Sept 30?!"
My friend and I are putting up an ftp link to it so non-Fileplanet subscribers can download it. (602MB)
Here's some pics I took of it:
You can download it at my site (if it's fast enough). Right-click and "Save As...":
HL2 25-minute E3 Preview |
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[May. 16th, 2003|10:10 am] |
Aw, man .. this offer is both good and bad .. as Nine had already brought up:
http://www.mmorpg.com/gamelist.cfm?CFID=2147568&CFTOKEN=72407755&loadnews=405&bhsw=1600&bhsh=1200&bhswi=1600&bhshi=1040&cookies=1
If Planetside will cost $10-13, then EQ2 will cost roughtly the same or more ($15?). In which $22 isn't much of a difference .. only $100 extra a year. Oh .. well then that does make a difference if you think in bulk terminology. heh
Other things .. some guy kept emailing me to right a server admin program for CounterStrike/Half-Life servers. Not to admin the game, rather the server. No money involved. What is the deal with people? I give two speech apps for EQ and DAoC. I give a full-blown remote admin program for Freelancer. A full-blown paging system with client-server capability. Free T1 server for Teamspeak and Freelancer. And not one person has given me one .. red .. cent. But yeah, they'll give me more projects.
Think it's time to work on my music. If this one is as good as I think it is, I hopefully will be out of the freebee business and perhaps in the $3/CD.
Sure would be nice to reap what I sow for a change. |
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[May. 15th, 2003|02:00 pm] |
In response to Nine's critique of the MMOPGS:
Heh I knew SWG would suck before their first screenshots came to public. It's like, "Hey! George Lucas wants to do something else he can't really do without the aid of some talent!" My friends and I had a very, very small conversation about him the other day. (Don't give the man too much thought.) I asked, "Ok what in the hell did George Lucas do besides direct 2 of the three original Star Wars movies .. to become *so* outrageously famous that other more talented directors haven't done?" James Cameron, for instance. That man can put out some good movies. Hell, Silvester Stallone's Rocky series is top-notch and deserves more credit than he receives. Yet Mr L makes one compelling story that had so many holes in it [which I'm sure he did *not* create intentionally] that the next director had to make many changes (and yes, Empire Strikes Back is still the best one thanks to no direction from GL). But that's enough ranting about that dumb series (god, I hate what he's done to the storyline!)
I really liked Rocky. The first two were magnificent. The last three had merit as well.
Ok, Planetside. I'm afraid you jumped ship too soon. I rather enjoyed this game as a deterent for using the mind and relief from tension .. other than .. well, nevermind that. It's not so much about what you have [since everyone has it], it's how talented you are at using it. For instance, I play the role of sniper/anti-vehicle grunt .. and I believe I play it well. Everything else, I pretty much sucked at .. heh. So I stuck to that role and am having a great time. It's definitely not irreparably stupid as DAoC has molded itself into ("Look! Flipper!" .. "He's so cute!" .. "Ok, kill him!"). Just point, click, fire, repeat. Just like Q3.
*But* on the downside, I would neeeever pay a monthly fee for this game as it is. You're supposed to pay $10-13/month for "bandwidth, content addition, etc." Now how the hell are you gonna add more content to this game that's not already present on every FPS game already there? And bandwidth? My god! I've never fought around more than 40 people at a time! Yeah, there's 2000 people playing but not around me. It's not like DAoC or EQ where you get 100+ people in one corner trying to accoplish something. There's no need to boast "pay for bandwidth" when Diablo 2 using the same amount for free. "Well, PS has more players in a server." Big flippin whoop! On a per-base basis, there's jack squat. So that's my pet-peave about Planetside.
Beta till I drop .. er it drops. I cancelled my pre-order on this one.
DAoC was a flop that was available during the time frame between EverBreasts and EQ2. It was fun but after you get that level 50 character and realize you still suck .. you realize it's time to jump ship. (Which is why I enjoy Planetside .. cause it's new, fun and *not* DAoC. heh) So they add buildings .. big whoops. Then they add Jacques Cousteau's WaterWorld .. zzzz. When a company promises "better framerates, improves graphics", make you *pay* for it only to find out the vision was far from the truth .. again, geronimooooo .. /quit .. jumpin ship. And here they go doing it again. And you just *know* Tweety is gonna jump right back to Sony once EverQuest 2 comes out. (Sorry, that girl is all about what's in .. not what's good.)
Which leads to EQ2 ..
Hell I've been killing time with other MMOs just to keep from banging my head into the virtual ground waiting for this one. Now it's release is Winter 2003. Screenies are very nice. No more EverBreasts(tm). Now it's more like EverSkin. But at least they don't have Prince pants like Linear 2, right? One screeny of EQ2 sorta gets close to rated 17 with a female character almost revealing her Victoria's Secrets. DOA anyone?
As for the game? Well there's so much to catch up to really .. considering I left the story before I started to look like a clown wearing a dress(before Luclin in other words). But then I read from the official website that EQ2 is a parallel universe to EQ. Ok, parallel isn't the word I'd use. Not at all unless you mean it's during the same time frame with the same blah blah blah .. you get the point. Well, I'll wait for beta.
So there's my take on things in conjuction with Nine's. Next? |
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[May. 2nd, 2003|01:08 pm] |
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| | .hack//SIGN Original Soundtrack 2 | ] |
oh where oh where has my lil cousin gone? oh where oh where can she be?
new cd is coming along nicely .. 45 min set so far .. i've recorded it and let the locals listen in. they love it .. love it love it love it!
"i tired so hard" aaahahaha!
think i'm gonna watch outlaw star tonight .. i love the term "clan clan". it drives me silly, yeah oh! i got my .hack 2 dvd thingie today. best part isn't the movie, it's the soundtrack. very chrono crossish
i'm goin this way! |
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[Apr. 21st, 2003|09:10 am] |
| [ | mood |
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| [ | music |
| | Roni Size & Reprazent - Hot Stuff | ] |
so i make this "amazing" server admin program for the Freelancer game. next thing you know, i'm being swamped with other game server app requests. half-life, counterstrike, blah-blah. this app was one of the e a s i e s t programs i had ever made! besides the intense remote admin portion of it, that is.
this urks me .. cause two of my best applications were overlooked for years. eq-link .. speech for everquest .. disregarded. spdaoc .. speech for dark age of camelot .. neglected. i even spent money buying bandwidth to allow people to download with ease.
this world is fubared. from now on, i see where innovation fails and simplicity reigns. if i want to impress anyone with anything vaguely .. um .. impressive, it will have to be myself.
like last night .. i wrote a crazy music riff to use in my next cd. i called out k to check it out. she liked it but was so interested in how i did this and what that thing was .. that the music i wrote wasn't as important. of course, she doesn't really want to hear me play anyway .. makes her feel inferior. grr, why can't people just enjoy something?
but i'm not upset or peeved .. things like this are wack but beyond my control. what else is new?
p.s. whenever planetside comes out, i think i'm gonna be just a grunt. i'm not e v e n gonna try leading some fools to battle. |
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[Apr. 17th, 2003|12:46 pm] |
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| |  hot | ] |
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| | The Roots - 08 - Ain't Sayin' Nothin' New | ] |
B I G S W O L L E N F R E D D Y S T R I K E S A G A I N |
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[Apr. 15th, 2003|02:43 pm] |
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| |  nervous | ] |
| [ | music |
| | none! omg! | ] |
talk about some crazy week it's been. work like the devil .. mostly my own evildoing too! i installed the game freelancer to bide the time till eq2 comes, right? well noooo .. it wasn't an mmorpg but it *did* have a multiplayer option. so i set up an ok server. 16 players .. 24 players .. now 20 players. but noooo i wasn't satisfied. i decided to create a perl script to query the server. then i created a program to restart the server when it crashed (cause microsoft only put O N E programmer on the multiplayer code aahahahaha). then .. i decided to go one step further and make a remote administration program for it since microsoft didn't feel it was useful to the admins at the time .. cause .. well, only one brain was working on it! aahahaha!
so .. i wrote three programs in like 6 days. plus my own work and whatnot. i'm gonna kill myself if i don't slow down!
i haven't even listened to my music streams since then. eq2, hurry up and get here so i can relax!
aahahahahaha! |
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[Apr. 11th, 2003|01:48 pm] |
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| | crazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Slum Village - Untitled Fantastic | ] |
girlz gone wild, lj style
dayem, every one of my lj friends decided to post this week. i needs to catch ups. so last night i passed out around 1a cause this exercising stuff i'm doing to get ready for a 10k run in new orleans on the 19th with k, rebecca, who's really cool and hilarious, and a couple other people so we, thom and i, are constantly running up and down stadium bleechers (did i spell that right? oh! and luclin? you playing eq again? you know who i'm talkin to ..) and running laps, and skating around the ul campus which i did this awesome air leap-o-death and got some praise from cars that passed by but after the fourth lap we were tired.
oh! << rewind
so last night i passed out around 1a after talking with k about how my sister has boy problems and how i "listened" to her tell me everything that was on her mind for over an hour where she talked about her tip to new orleans to meet me after i got off work which didn't happen cause her flight was delayed till like 11p so instead she just got to see pearl jam with a friend and her ex-bf who has a girlfriend that wasn't there and yet they went and even though they hadn't dated for years the feelings were still there but i'd rather not get into it right now considering i just told k all about it and it frustrated me to see my dad in so many of my siblings and in me too (ugh i hate to say that!!!!!!!)
doh! << rewind
ok .. ok
so last night i passed out (around 1a .. got it, fiik) around 1a, yeah and had this awesome dream that i was listening to a remix of the fugees' "killing me softly" but clicked in the middle of the song and it went to a dj shadow-type beat and her lyrics were different so i rewinded (heh) to the beginning and listened to the entire thing in my dream .. it was awesome! so i woke up and sang it in my head and realized it wasn't "killing me softly" but rather an entirely new song i made up in my dream .. so i wanted to sing it all day so i could put it to the keys after work ..
but i forgot it already
damn .. now would be a good time for a rewind |
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[Apr. 1st, 2003|01:07 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  high | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Quasimoto - Welcome to Violence | ] |
awwwwyeah! kk is gonna send me a sound module! plus, after paying off my monthly dose of bills, i have enough for another one from ebay if i so desire. which .. i do
b u t
k and my one-year anniversary is coming next month .. so i'm gonna save up for that .. then go slap happy with the sound goodness. that reminds me .. need to make some sound bites this weekend (writes on hand)
will soon have some pics to show .. soon as i find that 15 mins of freedom >)
lots more to say, too little time
oooo! there's a "high" emotion! man, i've *gotta* see what the lil icon does with this one |
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[Mar. 28th, 2003|10:19 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  confused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | DJ Krush | ] |
bouts to take the flight to cinny soon to meet the fam from the distance. it's a little exciting considering the fact that i've never been to cinny. i just hope we don't stay chez .. cause the ticket wasn't cheap heh
speaking of the monies .. ebay's module listings are looking saweet .. now i'm having difficulty in deciding on whether to buy a recorder or more modules.
ugh!
hate acting like a consumer, but it's so much funnn! and necessary at this point ..
what to do .. what to do .. . |
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[Mar. 25th, 2003|12:28 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | irritated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | MONK | ] |
so last night i find out two things about my primary keyboard:
1) that it has a sequencer worth using
2) that it is a pain to find the manual for it online
the first one is a lifesaver being as i don't have my minidisc recorder anymore; and i don't know which recorder combo i want next (mixer/computer soft or digital recorder/mixer). i basically did the typical midi setup and have everything channeled in, out or thru that one keyboard. nothing special there at all since that's standard .. but i'm now confident this keyboard can handle everything. before, i just used it as the primary for playing, not sequencing.
i've also decided to actually *use* my sampler more often. i hate having to play and record samples i've created onto my sampler, but it gives me more room to add variety to my songs . .and that's definitely what i'm looking to do. the next song is gonna be a lot different!
and the manual? well i just had to do a search and pinpoint the link .. but it was still a pain and i don't understand why. the keyboard is only three years old! it was first created four years ago. so why on earth did they "discontinue" it from the list of keyboards? not only that but i wondered why keyboards that are less than 5 years old aren't for sale in the music catalogs? it's a shame. musicians need to have all equipment available to them .. esp when it'll be cheaper!
i still don't understand how companies expect new music when it cost so much to make it (other than stealing samples and using them .. which i think is the bunk. you can't make your own patterns and samples, don't make music. the rest is hobby.) i've been wanting an electric drum set for years. but i'm not dishing out $2500 for the good one. and when it finally drops in price, it becomes unlisted in the catalogs and web sites. the minidisc recorder i wanted last year (that was $700) is now gone too. and it was an 8-track recorder! still very useful, just low priced, discontinued and only ebay-bound.
so that's where i'm at .. i'm just gonna have to stick to ebay to get tone generators of "old" .. the good ones .. ones with stuff that *makes* them sound old or different (i'd like to put it). now they're selling analog synths at enormous prices .. a n a l o g!!!
k i'm done... i'm so happy i got what i have .. thank you thank you thank you. i've been blessed and boi do i know it! |
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